I'm finally relieved

I'm sorry for that kind of post,but I seriously need to let those regrets from my feelings. After all my stupid decision is the one who brings me into the depth of regret of my life,and after all even she knows about my feelings for her. But she decided to choose my best friend because she said she loves a person who give the best feelings for her,and then their relationships ended and she came to me while cried and told me she feel bad for leaving me. But that was the time that I'm already decide not to fall in love again for the wrong person,she apologized to me and I replied it was over. For her and for me,and I becoming more rude since that time. Because every time she came to meet me at my workplace I just ignored her. That's the time I feel so bad because I made the woman that I loved cried,but I'm not blaming myself because she's the one who left me first.

At that moment I finally realized what everybody needs to be inside a complete adulthood is the moment when your hearts been tore into pieces by the one that you loved,and when she knows the reason for me to leave her she finally leaves me.