New Update

 Hey guys,guess what? I got myself a new laptop yayy!!!! So as I was saying in previous blog updates,my old laptop is broke and for a lot of times I can't even play any games,and post any updates here. So I got myself a new laptop and for your info,I finally go to college again. So yeah the reason for me to buy a new laptop is so I can use it for college purposes,and for me to play some games again. Anti-Social life here I come once again lol

Hi guys

Hi guys,I guess it's almost been a year since I last posted in this blog. So there's a lot of things I've been through for this 11 months and one of the reason why I never posted anything in my blog is because my laptop that I already considered my first love is broken after almost 5 years of using,and since I'm an unemployed who still in a job hunt it's kinda like a living hell for me. Oh and I'm almost forgot I finally get the chance to meet my nephew tho,I guess it's like behind any hardship there's the joy that awaits you.

I wanted to write a lot of things here but I'm just gonna straight to the point here,Me and my buddies actually started a beverage business as well in Bogor so to anyone of you who read this lived in Indonesia,especially in Bogor might come check it out. Even though I'm the only one that able to serve you guys but I'll make sure you'll enjoy your stay so by all means please come visit okay?

And one final thing I'd like to tell to you guys is I'm finally on my way to become a decent person lol,and one of the first step that I take is I've not watched Anime for almost 9 months now. Maybe there will be a slightest chance that I'm gonna watch Anime but not in the mean time I guess.

Welp,that's that. So I guess I see you guys in another time,see ya~

seriously,what's happening with the way of thinking of Indonesian girls?

NEVER trust the "I love you and accept you of how you are" shit that some Indonesia girls told you if you're dating them,I told you now that was a bullshit. You better trust me that is a bullshit,because when girls said that it will be a 100% lie and they won't accept a thing that you wanted to do. And to me from my personal experience I'll admit that was a pain in the ass,she won't tolerate any mistakes that you've made but you need to forgive them if they made the mistakes. So to some  Indonesian girls who reading this can go fuck yourself and eat that bullshit of yours cause I don't give a shit to bitches like you

welp,i messed up -__-"

So,the end of March is near and I just remember about this blog. Yup,for the past few weeks I have a lot of things to take care of and I must say that finally I've got some stuff to do after 3 months of free time. Even though it's only taking care of my niece and helping my friends with his problem about confessing his feelings to the girl he liked,and attending my friends wedding. But because of that I'm forgot about this blog and I'll try to start update more stuff into this blog.

By the way,I've found a drawing that I made since high school and I have to say that bring back memories of my high school though. I mean it's been 3 years that I'm graduated high school and after the graduation ceremony I've been completely ignore all of my friends chat to me,and the first time I met them again is right when his wedding only. I'm pretty sure they surprised to see me after all this year I've been missing from their life lol,but that was the time we talked a lot about of things that happen after we graduated.

The problem is they ask me to come this Saturday to hang out with them and there's only one word that I can say when they asked me to come,shit. Yup,that's it. Shit. I'm fucked up the moment they asked me to come,so I hope there's nothing bad happened this Saturday after all I'm not the person who liked to meet a lot of people. Yes,I'm a shut in type person. Got a problem with that? xD

We Are X has a deep story

Hey guys so today I've finally got to watched a film called We Are X,it's a documentary film about a band called X JAPAN and it's my favorite Visual Kei band. So after 2 years the film been released I finally got the chance to watch it thanks to my friends who has the copy and I don't know where'd he get one,the film itself tells about all of the members about how they were before they joined X JAPAN. And the interesting part is we finally can see how Yoshiki tells about his past,about his loss when his father died,X JAPAN bassist Taiji out from the band,X JAPAN disbandment and the most important thing is Hide died.

In the film's poster there's a quote says "The Story is bigger than the movie",it's not wrong at all. When I watched it I can feel the emotions through the story and the impact,and because my grandmother were passed away in February this year I've been gone to a part where I feel loss because one of the women that I respect has passed away,and in that film Yoshiki said "To make great art you have to feel how was heartbreak feels like".

I got to admit though,He's right. Because when my grandmother died I can write a lyrics dedicated to her and made me realized even though she's gone. She's still lives in my heart as long as I remember her. And I've been a fan of X JAPAN since my childhood and thanks to this film,my love for X JAPAN keeps growing. To Yoshiki,much love and gratitude from me. Thank you for your beautiful songs and thank you for sharing all of your life experience.

Peace for the Next Generation that'll came

I always having a thought,what if all of human beings had their own peace. Without any war,poverty,hunger and we would see those days came. I always feel that when you got that kind of problems,it will affect the children that about to be born and the one who lived in this days. One of the guitarist called SUGIZO said it and to me personally thinks that he got the point,he said "When you love your daughter,you begin to love all children. Although this might sound grandiose,nothing will make me happier than seeing all children around the world lead joyous lives. I'll be more that satisfied if I can become a tool towards that goal". Even though I doesn't married yet,but I have a nephew and a niece. When I looked at them it always comes to my mind that I want them to have a peaceful lives without any hard times,maybe there might be an obstacles but when they grown up I'm sure they might overcame it.

And SUGIZO once stated that "There are secrets held by a small elite who control the world... We spend our lives without ever being aware of the truth that hidden from us,we have to liberate freedom and rebuild it by ourselves. I think the world is in need of a revolution. To know what to believe, to know what's really going on in this world we have to take the initiative. That's the sort of signal I'm trying to send". I think that this earth is a Lost Heaven to all of human kind,if we think straight about it we can see if the government being fair to all of its people than we would see any case about died of hunger,poverty,war and massacre.

I wanted for this world to become a better place for all of us,even though it may not be big but we can helping each other in a various ways. It maybe in form of helping people through charity or helping orphans and giving them the courage to become a better person in their generations.

Tragedy of the world

Okay I'm back and I'm fully relieved thanks to yesterday post that talked about my feeling for the girl that I've liked back at college,and I'm sorry for that and I promised you it will not happen again... Well not exactly "Never" but I'm gonna post that kind of stuff only when I'm feeling down or sad at that time. So today I just read some comic book that talked about war,and to tell you the truth it is talking about World War II. I'm not badmouthing the Allies or the Japan Army itself,but what I liked to talk about is the Kamikaze Unit. In this comic book that I've just read.the story tells about a girl who engaged with someone from the Japanese Air Force and her fiance died in the battlefield,and he only left a letter for her that mentioning about her happiness.

I don't want to blame about the Allies of the Japanese Army,what I'd like to talked about is that war always leave scars and pain in our heart. And how it affect people the soldier loves and cherish in their lives. When the Kamikaze Unit bombarded the Pearl Harbor,a lot of sacrifices were made from both sides. The soldiers left everyone their loved forever,and when the Atomic Bomb were dropped it came with a huge sacrifice too. A lot of civilians were died at that moment,the survivors live with a huge scars and a lot of radioactive signs in their body. I tell you guys though,it is hard for me to write this post because humanity were broke at that time. I hope this kind of tragedy will never happen again,and the comic that I've read is based on reality. Thanks to Seo Kouji for the comic,it moves my heart to made this post.