And after the class meeting over,we were divided into some groups to disscuss about the event that my school going to made at that time. And unfortunately i was in the same group as her,when we start to made the agenda she just cried because she still doesn't move on from him. Well my friends were being an ass and told me to calmed her down,because i doesn't have any clues to calm a woman down when she was burst in tears i just come to her and roll some animes in her laptop and leaves to do the duties that given by my team leader. After that she just gone quiet and came to me,just sits right beside me and doesn't even start some conversation to me or hell. Of course it's a very awkward moment for me and her,but then she just laughed at me and said to me that i'm some inexperience dude when handling a girl. I just replied to her that i seriously doesn't even bother what happen to you as long the assignment that given to us were done in the right time (seriously,no bullsh*t lol),and then she told me if there is something i need to know i just need to ask her. And just after that moment we became close to each other until i started to ask her out,just right at that time i confessed to her and she accept it.
When we were dating,we doesn't have any lovers quarrel and we were talked about our differences so we could understanding each other. And my relationship with her were lasted for a month and half,posting this is really hurting me so bad because of some memories that i had but i'm gonna keep it going. There is one thing that she doesn't talk me until before we were part ways,so when i'm already dating her for a month she's got hospitalized and i doesn't even know if she's not texting me when she just got hospitalized. That was the time when she told me that she's got TBC (Tuberculosis) and she feel bad if she told me,she thinks that i'm gonna leave her. I told her that i am already accept her for what she is even if she has some illness,and i promised her that i'm going to keep her company until she's out from the hospital. Back then my hair is a little bit longer than now,so when my relationship with her already reached a month and half she told me that she wanted to look me with short hair. So i told her that when i'm going home,i'm gonna cut it shorter for her. But that promise is one promise that i can't keep for her and i'm still guilty for it. Because right when i'm going home she just let out her last breath,RIGHT when i leave her to go home. And when i'm going to meet her my friends told me they're going with me and said that i need to wear black outfit to meet her.
Right after me and my friends step inside her room,i saw that all of my friends were already there with her parents and all of them were waiting for me to meet her for the last time. I was speechless at that time and shocked to know that she's gone forever,her parents thanked me for stayed at her side until the very end and gave me a letter from her. A letter that were wrote right after she was hospitalized saying that she was very sorry she couldn't fulfill the promise that we made and sorry for leaving me first. And her parents told my friends to leave the both of us alone so i can say my goodbyes for her,and i didn't tell anything because i was crying right beside her. Can't accept the fact that she leaves me forever and told me to move on. That's why i said that fate made me and her met in an odd ways and make us parted way in another odd ways as well,i just didn't realize the moment she wanted to see me with short hair was the last time that i'm gonna saw her.
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